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When Walking Alongside is Walking Out

Posted by Lacey Louwagie on May 23, 2012

Last weekend, my husband suggested that we try a Catholic Church in our neighborhood that we’d never been to before. Although we’ve both enjoyed attending a UCC Church for the past few months, I wondered how long it would be before one of us began feeling “homesick” for Catholicism (we started going to the UCC Church regularly with the new translation of the Mass).

At the “new Church,” we were treated to a homily on “What the Church says about homosexuality.” (You, too, can be treated to the convoluted homily here. It’s fascinating to hear the priest compare GLBTQ people to pedophiles at least twice while saying that we still must treat homosexuals with “respect.”) To his credit, he DID remember BOTH sides of the Catholic teaching, which is that homosexual people must be treated with compassion and respect, although I’ve never been able to figure out how lobbying to take away their rights is compassionate or respectful (and no, it’s NOT for “their own good” — these are grown-ups we’re talking about, people, who certainly don’t need US making or enforcing rules for them.)  (As another aside, our own Phillip Clark speaks to this duality with MUCH more eloquence than this priest does; make sure to watch for his essay about it in the upcoming book, Hungering and Thirsting for Justice, due out in September.)

No matter how many times I’ve heard the rhetoric about the “Church’s stance,” it just won’t roll off my back. I felt my disappointment and anger mount throughout the sermon, and I thought, “Well, we’ll never come back to THIS church.”

As soon as the sermon ended, my husband leaned close to me and whispered, “When do you want to leave?”

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How We Must Respond to the Inquisition of the Twenty-First Century

Posted by Phillip Clark on April 30, 2012

Although many have anticipated it, I could not fathom such a setback taking place. My Piscean hope and optimism impelled me to believe that the Vatican would never take such a bold, pointed step, displaying that it was intent on stifling any sort of objective or progressive way of thinking that was taking place within the church. Yet, last week, the institutional church of Rome announced that the Leadership Conference of Women Religious – the nation’s largest coalition of professed nuns -  would be undergoing a “reform” to ensure that its statutes and mission were in greater conformity with official Catholic teaching. Many sisters openly support a more nuanced, thoughtful approach when it comes to an array of issues dealing with the realm of human sexuality. This greatly troubled the pope and the bureaucratic apparatus of the Holy See.

Because of their consistent and zealous dedication to contemplate issues such as the morality of abortion, homosexuality, contraception, and women’s ordination the sisters have had the integrity of their faith, as well as their religious apostolate, placed under scrutiny. Archbishop Peter Sartain, the leader of the Archdiocese of Seattle, and a vocal foe of civic efforts to legalize marriage equality, has been tasked with overseeing the implementation of this “reform.”

In light of these revelations, it must be stated that such efforts in no way constitute the conditions that the word “reform” demands. This is nothing less than a modern-day Inquisition. It isn’t coincidence that the Vatican committee from which this indictment stemmed (the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith, whose former head, Cardinal Joseph Ratzinger was elected Bishop of Rome in 2005) has previously been known as the “Holy Office of the Inquisition.” During the European Renaissance of the sixteenth and seventeenth centuries, and in the days of the Enlightenment that would follow it, this entity bore the sole responsibility for the suppression, and attempted eradication, of any instance of provocative questioning that challenged the conventional wisdom that had been established by the institutional hierarchy of the Roman Catholic Church. Joan of Arc, Galileo Galilei, Nicolaus Copernicus, and Frs. Hans Küng and Charles Curran are just a few notable subjects who have borne the brunt of this assembly’s assault on the cognitive process throughout history.

As I digested these realizations, I asked myself, out of despair and pragmatic concern, “Can I remain a credible member of an institution that stands for such blatant manifestations of homophobia and misogyny?” For some time, I seriously pondered the notion that so many have suggested before to myself, and other progressively-inclined Catholics – to join the Episcopal Church. For me personally, such a move would be coming full circle in spiritual terms. I am a former member of the Anglican Communion. In my later teenage years I felt compelled to enter into full communion with the Roman Catholic Church, and in 2007, was confirmed and received during the Easter Vigil. However, since that time, my thoughts and attitudes about a variety of theological and political topics have changed completely.

The foremost of these ideological evolutions was my own spiritual and emotional journey of discovery regarding my own sexuality. After coming to terms with, and accepting the fact that I was a gay man, created in the image of God, just as any other human being is, no longer could I view any segment of Scripture through a rigidly literal lens. Although I now accept my orientation as holy, and God-given, the hierarchy of the Roman Catholic Church does not. In stark contrast, at least in the United States, the Episcopal Church openly affirms and welcomes LGBT persons completely for who they are. They are not required to live celibately, in order to satisfy the dictates of interpretations and theological regulations that have been concocted by fallible men. Instead, they are allowed to fully express themselves as the persons they were created to be – regardless of who they are attracted to, or who they happen to fall in love with.

If the hierarchy of the Catholic Church is punishing religious sisters for exploring and celebrating such a mindset, will there come a time in the future when the doors of all Catholic parishes will be slammed shut, as far as LGBT persons are concerned? Statistically, the climate within the church only seems as if it will trend in an increasingly more conservative direction. The men that Pope Benedict has been appointing as bishops have proven to be consistently conservative and reactionary on all matters theological and political. In an even more discouraging assessment, most younger men who are currently in seminary, or who have been ordained to the priesthood within the past two decades, are overwhelmingly more rigid in their approach to most doctrinal and pastoral questions compared to their counterparts who may have been ordained immediately before or shortly after the Second Vatican Council, which took place in the 1960′s. This was made evident recently when a very orthodox priest denied Holy Communion to a woman who happened to be a lesbian, living openly in a relationship with another woman, at her own mother’s funeral. Although this priest was later reprimanded, and subsequently suspended from the Archdiocese of Washington, such an incident, drenched in vertical judgment and lack of compassion, serves as a frightening portal into what the future of Catholicism could be.

I’m very blessed to have been directed by the Holy Spirit to an extremely welcoming, vibrant, and diverse parish here in Baltimore. The pastor is a wonderfully accepting and courageous man, formed in the innovative consciousness of the Second Vatican Council that was inspiring to so many. But what happens in the future whenever a new, younger priest might be assigned? I could very clearly envision what my fate would be then, especially if I happened to openly be in a committed relationship with another man.

These questions and potential scenarios were what drove my heart to deep despair, dismay, and dejection as I mulled over what  the implications of last week’s news meant for my life intimately, and the Catholic Church in the United States as a whole. With the purposeful direction that the pope and the hierarchy are taking, it seems that Catholicism, despite the efforts of many, will become nothing more than a cult as time passes. Gone will be the sacramental vision that reveres and celebrates the Sacred present in every man, woman, child, life experience; extending to all aspects of creation. The only recognized mediators of holiness will now be the pope, the bishops, and the all-male priesthood, who are the exclusive vehicles through which Divine revelation is interpreted.

If this is indeed the future of the Catholic Church, why remain? Such a vision is the exact opposite of the dynamic, inclusive Reign of God which Jesus of Nazareth proclaimed as the cause of His being, and would ultimately forfeit His life for. Perhaps, being a Catholic is no longer in keeping with my conscience?

As I wrestled internally with these questions, my mind was suddenly swept back to Call to Action’s national Conference of 2010. It was there that I had the life-altering opportunity to be in the presence of Joan Chittister, a Benedictine sister and global advocate on a variety of issues, most notably, those of justice, peace, and women’s rights. She had long been a spiritual hero for me. It was her prolific writing that helped me begin to approach my faith in a new manner, not merely accepting “divinely revealed truths”, but insisting on asking questions. In this way, I would come to realize, our faith was actually deepened and confirmed. At the Conference, Sister Joan was conducting a book signing. I eagerly brought a book of hers I had been reading on the trip to Milwaukee with me to the event. As the time came for me to approach her I was overcome with joy, and I have to admit, was somewhat starstruck. To ease the high intensity of that moment, I remarked that several months before I had written her a letter thanking her for the profound inspiration that her own works had meant for my spiritual life. I had also recounted my own struggle of coming to terms with my sexual orientation, as well as some daunting financial straits myself and my mother were undergoing. It was a very difficult period of my life in which I had trouble envisioning with certainty what the future would look like. I never expected Sister Joan to remember these facets of my personal life, but she surprised me by saying, “I remember your letter.” She continued, “Know that just you’re being here means something. Even in the valleys and the deserts of your life know that you are not alone. We are with you, all of us are with you!” These powerful words of encouragement will remain cemented upon my heart forever.

As I was leaving the Conference I had another chance encounter that would leave my life indelibly changed. On the return flight to Baltimore, by coincidence, I happened to be seated next to Sister Jeannine Grammick. Sister Jeannine has been a champion for years of the moral legitimacy and equal dignity bestowed by God to persons who are lesbian, gay, bisexual or transgender. For three decades, she has operated New Ways Ministry, a Catholic organization dedicated to affirming and welcoming LGBT individuals in the life of the church. As we chatted, I conveyed to her my gratitude for the wonderful and profoundly meaningful work she has done on behalf of gay Catholics. As our plane continued along its course, Sister Jeannine inquired about what parish I attended in Baltimore. At the time, I was attending the cathedral parish where I had been received into the Catholic Church. I mentioned that the solemn, choral liturgy was my main reason for worshiping there, rather than any sense of real belonging that made me feel as if I was an indispensable part of the community. Sister Jeannine proposed to me that I investigate other parishes that actively welcomed and supported individuals regardless of their background or sexual orientation. The parish I attend today was one of those she recommended to me.

Even as I went through the process of formally entering the Catholic Church a very dedicated School Sister of Notre Dame had helped facilitate and make the whole endeavor one of warmth, joy, and ease.

I must admit that my contact with religious sisters has been infrequent, compared to most Catholics who may have been raised in their presence, constantly being enriched by their guidance as teachers, catechists, or parish coordinators. But the aforementioned experiences I’ve been blessed to enjoy have greatly impacted my own personal growth, both spiritually and psychologically.

For numerous American Catholics, the sisters have remained the legitimate moral leaders of the church. In contrast, the institutional hierarchy has become ever more concerned with the legal precision of the expression of various doctrines, and the maintenance of the medieval vestiges of ecclesiastical power – all to the detriment of those who occupy the furthest margins of society. When an epidemic wave of bullying drove numerous LGBT individuals to see taking their lives as the only way they could be delivered from such relentless torture, what words of encouragement did our nation’s bishops offer to ease the pain of this tragic phenomenon?

Absolutely nothing.

It was the National Coalition of American Nuns that condemned the outbreak of suicides amongst many of America’s LGBT youths. This was done primarily out of a heartfelt obligation to do something, given that the U.S. Conference of Catholic Bishops had been notably silent on this pressing and deeply disturbing occurrence.

As I ponder these facts, and many other ways in which America’s religious sisters have helped sustain and edify the faith of the Catholic Church in the United States, I am greatly saddened, as a discouraging paradigm seems to be taking hold of the church so many of us love and regard as our spiritual mainstay.

Although many may legitimately no longer be able to find their spiritual nourishment within the confines of the Roman Catholic Church I do not see it as my task to leave at this point. First of all, this is not the attitude and the character that formed the mission and the life of Jesus of Nazareth. Jesus never backed down from anything. His very life was animated with unbridled passion for pursuing justice, mercy, and peace. Impelled by the Spirit, these virtues sustained His cause even through the onslaught of suffering, and finally, as He emitted His last breath, in His final act of love upon the wood and shame of the cross. Even though the religious and political authorities of His day sought to extinguish Jesus’ impact on society because they saw Him as a subversive threat to all that they held dear, this never deterred Him from living out His mission of communicating the Divine to an unsuspecting world.

In the same spirit, I see myself called to remain in solidarity with the sisters who have offered to the world another, more maternal, image of God than those exemplified by their counterparts in the echelons of power. I am called to stand with Joan Chittister, Jeannine Grammick, Elizabeth Johnson, Catherine of Sienna, Hildegard of Bingen, Teresa of Avila, Mary MacKillop and all religious women of conscience throughout the centuries who have remained within the walls of the Catholic Church and stood firm for their convictions, instead of letting the status quo of unchecked patriarchy hold sway.

As Sister Joan emphasized to me that all those who were dedicated to the cause that Call to Action stands for I could rely on for spiritual and emotional solidarity, so I must remain in unity, and unwavering support of these courageous women who are responsible for building and vivifying the Catholic Church in the United States as we know it today.

Two Scriptural passages seem to grant hope to all who may be experiencing feelings of uncertainty and despair with these most recent developments.

In the Acts of the Apostles, the early Christian community is presented as experiencing persecution from both the secular authorities of Rome as well as the religious leaders of Judaism. As Peter and other apostles are being interrogated in front of a panel of Jewish religious authorities, a respected Pharisee interrupts the proceedings, and says, “In the present case, I tell you, keep away from these men and let them alone; because if this plan or this undertaking is of human origin, it will fail; but if it is of God, you will not be able to overthrow them – in that case you may even be found fighting against God!” -Acts 5:38-39

If the cause of the Leadership Conference of Women Religious is truly Spirit-driven there is nothing that the powers of men will be able to do to extinguish it, even if it is necessary for it to be transformed into an entirely new manifestation.

In the Gospel reading for the Fourth Sunday of Easter, the author of John depicts Jesus as stating, “I am the Good Shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. The hired hand, who is not the shepherd and does not own the sheep, sees the wolf coming and leaves the sheep and runs away – and the wolf snatches them and scatters them. The hired hand runs away because a hired hand does not care for the sheep. I am the Good Shepherd. I know My own and My own know Me, just as the Father knows Me and I know the Father. And I lay down My life for the sheep…For this reason the Father loves Me, because I lay down My life in order to take it up again. No one takes it from Me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have power to lay it down, and I have power to take it up again.” -John 10:11-15,17-18

Just as God has blessed us with genuine, attentive, pastoral shepherds in the ministries and examples of so many religious women here in the United States, so we must remind these valiant sisters that even in these dark days of despair and uncertainty hope is not lost. The Good Shepherd has gone before us, and continues to lead us in love, generously caring for all those entrusted to His fold. Even as the ‘hired hands’ of an institution have continued to flee from the implications that the signs of this age may be offering, Christ the Good Shepherd continues to lead His Church through unpredictable pastures. We shall fear no evil, for He remains always with us.

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Rules for radicals: “Stay with these”

Posted by Justin Sengstock on April 30, 2012

In 2010, foreign-correspondent-turned-cultural-critic Chris Hedges published Death of the Liberal Class. The book traces the decline of groups like organized labor, the media, the academy, and the church that once effectively challenged moneyed interests. Hedges argues that over the last several decades, most of the “liberal class” assimilated into the corporate establishment, and the remaining outliers were successfully marginalized.

But he does profile some of those outliers who have continued, at great personal cost, to speak out. One is the poet and peace activist Father Daniel Berrigan, S.J. A veteran of civil disobedience, Berrigan was one of the “Catonsville Nine” who broke into a draft board and burned its files in 1968, and one of the “Plowshares Eight” who broke into a nuclear missile plant in 1980. He knows how jail feels.

Hedges reported that Berrigan was “unbowed at eighty-seven when I met him” (he turns ninety-one May 9) and “sat primly in a straight-backed wooden chair in his upper Manhattan apartment.” The posture was symbolic: “Time and age had not blunted this Jesuit priest’s fierce critique of the American empire or his radical interpretation of the Gospels.”

How did Berrigan persist long after former allies “disappeared into the matrix of money and regular jobs”? The priest observed: “It is very rare to sustain a movement in recognizable form without a spiritual basis of some kind.”

One of his mentors was Thomas Merton. The Trappist monk would “gather us for days of prayer and discussion of the sacramental life. He told us, ‘Stay with these, stay with these, these are your tools and discipline, and these are your strengths.’ He could be very tough…He said, ‘You are not going to survive America unless you are faithful to your discipline and tradition.’”

Berrigan relied on “the Eucharist, his faith, and his religious community,” Hedges said. Berrigan emphasized that he did what he did because of “a spiritual discipline that went on for months before these actions took place. We went into situations in court and in prison and in the underground that could easily have destroyed us and that did destroy others who did not have our preparation.”

I got involved with Call To Action a few months before starting the book. I read Berrigan’s words through that lens. I will not argue that the toll of church justice work is as severe as what he experienced. But even so, keeping our commitment is profoundly challenging.

Increasingly, the Catholic hierarchy not only affirms the exclusionary status quo but picks fights, and it remains ever the monolithic controller of facilities and issuer of paychecks. Those of us who speak up for a renewed church cannot call on the same power and infrastructure. We are small nonprofit staffs putting in many bizarrely-scheduled hours. We are volunteers with other jobs and families, who must use precious spare time for local agitation.

We stay at it because of our sense of fairness, because of the outsiders who are dear to us. But we definitely learn the meaning of Vaclav Havel’s remark: “You do not become a ‘dissident’ just because you decide one day to take up this most unusual career.” To survive we must be centered and rock-solid, with the right preparation.

We must look to people like Berrigan and Merton. We must use their tools and disciplines of prayer and sacrament. We must have faith in the Messiah, understanding that he began as an obscure, backwater carpenter who talked about things that were none of his business (“Where did this man get all this?”, “And they took offense at him,” Mark 6:2, 3).

We must have places, whether in good parishes or in the intentional communities of the “emerging church,” where we break bread and listen over and over again to the prophets and the promises, the stories of dying and rising. We must live in community, because while we have no choice about how much the burdens weigh, we do have the choice of sharing them with each other.

Every day we must “stay with these, stay with these.” These are our strengths and the church justice movement’s strengths.

 

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Holy Week and the now

Posted by Justin Sengstock on April 3, 2012

Maybe the Eastern Orthodox have a better name for Holy Week. They call it Great and Holy Week.

It’s holy, sure, but lots of things are holy. “Great” emphasizes just how set apart Holy Week is, like the Passover observance it’s related to. In the ritual dialogue of the Seder meal, the youngest person at table asks why that night is different from all other nights. This week is different from all other weeks.

Because it is totally different, we should expect totally different challenges. We should be right there in Gethsemane, with no exit, wondering if it hurts to die and if we’ll feel it when we stop breathing. We should stand grim and tight-lipped with Joseph of Arimathea, incredulous that he has to politely ask his friend’s killers, of all people, for the body.

We should sit with Peter in Friday’s doomsday sun, asking why we’re only bold and loyal when it doesn’t mean anything–and hearing no answer but the wind in the olives. We should get violently nauseated with Judas when we suddenly understand, in a god-awful thunderclap, that we’ve all betrayed innocent blood.

Palm Sunday starts the immersion. We are shoved into the middle of the action. We are the “Crowd.” And no matter which Gospel is in the rotation this time, the “Crowd” always has to make the same shrill, embarrassing demand: “Crucify him!”

By participating in the Passion reading, we confront ourselves in the mirror. Our love for God and each other is brittle. We constantly fight our instinctive, reptilian-brain preference for the Barabbas of the moment. Our inescapable human condition is to live in the “Crowd,” which is no more civilized than it was two millennia ago. The ghastliness in the glass demands that we pause and stare.

So I was a bit disappointed at my church this Palm Sunday when, once the Passion according to Mark was finished, Father turned immediately to preaching about God’s love. Ordinarily I’m all about God’s love. But somehow the transition was just too awkward this time.

The homily went like this: Jesus died for us because God loves us, so we should spend the week meditating on metaphors for God’s overflowing love. Father suggested a blasting fire hose (“any of you ever try to drink from one of those?”), or maybe a dump truck (umm, God’s love is a whole bunch of dirt?). And Niagara Falls (“wow, that’s a lot of water”).

Let’s just say he lost me back at the dump truck.

These folksy images comfort us. They are expectations of abundance. They skip ahead a week. They evade the urgency of the now.

Let’s slow down, way down. Let’s stay, just for now, with the roosters that accuse us, the thirty silver pieces that feel so cold and greasy we can’t get rid of them fast enough.

For here and now, God is still lost in the crowd, lost with the excluded, the vulnerable, and the scapegoats. In them, God is still getting betrayed, crucified, and exchanged for Barabbas.

It’s never stopped.

On Easter Sunday, Jesus will comfort the afflicted. During the Great and Holy Week, let him afflict the comfortable.

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CTA 20/30 Leadership Team Reports Priorities & Goals from Planning Retreat

Posted by Ryan Hoffmann on April 3, 2012

Dear CTA 20/30 Community,

The CTA 20/30 Leadership Team met the weekend of February 25th to re-connect with each other, review last year’s programming goals, and plan for our work together in 2012.  Our time together was both nourishing and productive.  We are off and running!

To all those who gave us feedback on last year’s efforts I am most thankful.  I wish to highlight some of the feedback we received.

  • The team analyzed feedback from constituents regarding CTA 20/30 programming (conference, communications, issues, etc.).  Several themes presented themselves, namely, the interwoven dimensions of action and spirituality, the need for continued young adult community, networking, and fellowship, more outreach to and collaboration with ecumenical and interfaith entities, and an increase in young adult keynotes and presenters at national conference.
  • Specific issues that were raised up by CTA 20/30 members included women’s leadership in the Church, LGBTQ advocacy, racial justice, and lay empowerment.
  • Recommendations regarding outreach strategies included online resource building and networking, dialogue and collaboration with the other, story-telling, and calendaring local and regional actions and events.

While the CTA 20/30 Leadership Team convenes to set the overall trajectory of and goals for progressive young adult Catholics, we acknowledge and affirm everyone’s role and voice in the movement.  In this spirit, I hope you will join the team in advancing the following priorities.

  • The team re-committed themselves to Call To Action’s anti-racist and anti-oppressive initiatives by reviewing and revising a CTA 20/30 anti-racism worksheet.  The team hopes to use this resource as a guide when creating and implementing programs.
  • The team wishes to actively engage members at the national conference and is taking a leading role in designing and executing a pre-conference workshop in collaboration with CTA allies.
  • The team wishes to further affirm the importance of conference and the programming done there and has created programming and outreach committees to assist in the development of programmatic offerings and enhance the visibility and marketing of conference opportunities.
  • With regards to community building, networking, and consciousness-raising, the team has instituted an online community committee tasked with creating and coordinating online content accessible to young adult progressive Catholics.
  • Finally, the team believes it is important to be active “out there” by demanding prophetic action and engaging and connecting with values and mission similar to CTA.  To this extent, the team has lifted up School of the Americas (SOA) and World Youth Day (WYD), and wishes to again offer a Summer Training and Organizing Institute (we hope to build off the success of last year’s event) in Los Angeles in July.

My hope is that this summary of our priorities is helpful and that you find some of your voice in our collective one.  If you wish to assist with one or more of the endeavors catalogued above please be in touch – we are in this together.  Thank you for all you do for the movement.

Respectfully Submitted,

Ryan J. Hoffmann

CTA 20/30 Team Chair

rynhof@gmail.com

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“We have all known the long loneliness”

Posted by Justin Sengstock on March 19, 2012

On St. Patrick’s Day, my parents drove to my grandmother’s house to let the meter reader in. It’s been vacant since she passed away in July 2008—we’re still trying to sell it.

The meter reader was late. So Mom and Dad set up lawn-chairs near the magnolia, blossoming eerily early in the 80-degree heat, and lounged.

John, a neighbor and one of the few remaining vestiges of the era when my grandparents’ street was a Polish island, saw their car. John walked over through the backyard, said hi and told them the news. Eddie, another erstwhile neighbor, was dead.

The couple next door to my grandparents had a handful of children. Both my parents, though they would not meet each other until their twenties, were childhood pals of these kids. Eddie was the oldest.

Eddie went into the service and stayed there for a while. I asked my mom which branch. She thought army. I asked if he was in Vietnam, since that occurred around that time. She didn’t know.

As the story unfolded, I realized this was a trend. Few outside Eddie’s immediate family knew much about Eddie.

After the army he went to Arizona and became a businessman of indeterminate kind. He did well. A shiny luxury car returned periodically to the old neighborhood to call upon the aging immigrant parents.

The visits were scattered. They were rare enough to be as noteworthy as the car. In a gossipy ethnic enclave, ravenously attentive to material signs its offspring were making it, this was not an inconsiderable detail.

Eddie could afford more visits than he made. One of the few relatively solid facts in the gossip mill was that he spent little on anyone or anything. There was no wife, no kids. And after Eddie’s dad died twenty years ago, the shiny car faded into memory.

He prospered enough to retire early. He was 64 when he died in February. February is as sure as they’ll get.

They think early in the month, probably a stroke. The autopsy approximated the cause, more or less. Eddie had lain in his condo for about three weeks, his absence from life unnoticed. A postal worker initiated the wellness check when the mailbox overflowed.

This is the Passion narrative from the American gospel of self-reliant, bootstrapping individualism. Eddie pulled up so many roots that he sublimated like an ice cube, became an ethereal rumor floating between the office park and the golf course and the ADT-protected front door. He wasn’t concrete again until civil servants busted down that front door, wasn’t part of a community again until they called the next-of-kin.

One of the overriding themes of my winding Catholic pilgrimage is that, whatever else the Church has to offer the world, community is of first importance. Salvation is Jesus’ job. Gathering people is the Church’s job.

We are here to walk each other’s mile and bear each other’s load. We coax each other out of isolation. We do it not just to conquer more mission territory but because it is right, and because not to do so is unutterably sad.

“We have all known the long loneliness,” Dorothy Day wrote, “and we have learned that the only solution is love and that love comes with community.”

Eddie definitely made his own choices. But every person who dies without someone there to say “I love you” is still a nudge for the Church to wake up a little, to ask what it might have done, what it could do in the future. It is a nudge for me personally, because I, in communion with all the baptized, am the Church.

Rest in peace, Eddie.

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Our Lady of the Pink Line

Posted by Justin Sengstock on March 7, 2012

Our Lady of the Pink Line

Urban centers have religious art in random, surprising places. Here is some from Chicago’s Pilsen neighborhood. (Taken on the Loop-bound platform of the 18th Street Pink Line station, August 29, 2011. Image copyright (c) Justin Sengstock.)

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Decalogue

Posted by Justin Sengstock on February 22, 2012

Today is the first day of Lent, and Lent makes me think of the Ten Commandments. When I went to confession as a kid, in CCD class or high school, someone typically handed me a Xeroxed examination of conscience based on them. Lent is, among other things, an examination of conscience for the whole Church.

I tread cautiously around the commandments. Things figuratively or literally “written in stone” are paradoxically easy to trivialize. Something sounds dime-store cheap when people shout that we need the commandments posted in public buildings, or when they frantically exclaim that “the thing America needs to do” is to get back to the commandments. The “ten words” (literal meaning of decalogue) are not magic words.

Things written in stone are also easy to shroud in unquestioning silence. If you know historical-critical scriptural scholarship, you probably realize the first five books of the Bible, the Pentateuch, did not crystallize into their present form until a few centuries before Christ. The edicts and stories in the Pentateuch, including the Sinai theophany and the Ten Commandments, were gathered in light of what it meant to be an exilic and post-exilic Jew. You had to preserve your identity through law and scripture instead of king and country. But how to explain in your average church setting the nuances and caveats of “God said to Moses”?

Still, despite the stone, the commandments breathe. Whatever their origins, the commandments transcend them. However factual the Sinai account, the commandments are true. They could not endure so long, or haunt us so much, if it were not so.

We are frighteningly lonely when everything revolves around us and us alone. We are fragile when we pledge ourselves to one changeable idol after another in our indifferent, machine-like world. I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt; you shall have no other gods besides me. We debase the sacred by confidently claiming divine warrant for our whims, pet projects, politics, and worldviews. You shall not take the name of the Lord your God in vain. We cycle between blind busyness and spaced-out distraction, leaving no time to be aware, open, and alive. Keep holy the Sabbath.

We either take our families for granted, or struggle to reconcile with them when they are mind-bogglingly hurtful and clueless. Honor your father and your mother. Without once touching a gun or knife, we cultivate death by neglecting our relationships, by nursing anger and prejudice, and by flinging razor-edged words at the emotional arteries of people we find too different, too irritating, or too inconvenient. You shall not kill.

We have to figure out how to be healthy lovers while living in a mindless, commoditized sexual culture, one that thrives by selling us intoxicating promises of things that only almost happen. You shall not commit adultery. We also live in a winner-take-all society in which the wealthy few are worshiped, the means to their ends are barely questioned, and our overall abandonment of the poor is justified by sputtering about “hard work,” “freedom,” and “responsibility.” You shall not steal.

Substance is cheap these days, appearance is expensive, and competition is bloody. We find it hard to get ahead without some shared test answers here, a farmed-out term paper over there, maybe an “imaginative” or “creative” resume. You shall not bear false witness.

Some of us have cheated on or with someone. Many others of us lust after those who do not and cannot reciprocate. Either way, we create people in the image of something they are not until the illusion goes very, very wrong. You shall not covet your neighbor’s spouse. Every day we wade through a sea of pop-up ads, billboards, and branding. This is also a sea of debt, stress, and despair. You shall not covet your neighbor’s goods.

The commandments address questions we cannot avoid. Do we come from a Source to which we are responsible? Are we able to try and do everything because we can bounce back from everything? Or are there some things we just can’t do because they break us, and others, into a million pieces? Are we a profusion of self-contained, self-interested monads—homo economicus, “Economic Man”? Or is our essential reality the African concept of ubuntu: “I am because we are”?

If the Resurrection we celebrate at Easter answers our brokenness, both communal and personal, we must first know that brokenness. We must know how to ask the right questions about it. We must observe Lent. We must know the commandments.

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Under my roof

Posted by Justin Sengstock on February 8, 2012

I thought I was done talking about the liturgy.  I really thought I was. There is a point where you move from “vibrant and ongoing conversation” to “dead horse of a thousand contusions,” especially when you’re blogging. I get that.

But one of my friends called me right before New Year’s, and we talked about the Mass changes. Suddenly I had a new perspective, one which still begins in my frustration over literal translation but definitely transcends it.

My friend works with the homeless. Actually, at his organization they prefer to say “folks experiencing homelessness.” Saying “the homeless” defines people by their state and carries a whiff of dehumanizing.

He is well-acquainted with an urban parish where much of the congregation experiences homelessness. The parish decided not to implement all the changes in the revised Missal. One phrase they took special care to excise: “under my roof.”

Before Communion we no longer say, “Lord, I am not worthy to receive you, but only say the word and I shall be healed.” In a nod to Latinate precision, as well as to the story of the centurion seeking his servant’s healing (see Matthew 8:8), we now say “I am not worthy that you should enter under my roof.”

At this particular parish, however, many worshipers have not had a roof for a long time. Many may never have one again. This gives them, and the parish as a whole, a very different perspective on both life and church. So the leadership made a pastoral decision. They simply refused to make congregants speak of roofs.

For me, “under my roof” was one of the less odious changes. But hearing this story made me realize something about homelessness and God’s relationship to those who endure it. God is one of those folks experiencing homelessness, and it’s not a metaphor. The homeless God, in the person of Jesus, is literal.

Jesus was not being poetic but matter-of-fact when he said, “Foxes have dens and birds of the sky have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to rest his head” (Luke 9:58). His chosen homelessness, his life on the edge and on the run, was integral to the form and meaning of a mission principally carried out among outcasts. It should be an important factor in interpreting, continuing, and publicly celebrating his mission today.

But the ordinary Catholic Mass, the main contact most Catholics have with their faith and what it asks of them, easily sidesteps this reality. Liturgy prefers God the majestic and Christ the king. This has been true for centuries, ever since Christianity spread beyond its origins among fishermen and slaves, and the Third Edition of the Roman Missal just underlines the problem with a bit more pencil.

I am beginning to understand we have much bigger questions than whether the new English translation is good or bad, worse than or better than. Something about Jesus’ very Jesus-ness was already obscured before the consubstantiality, the prevenient grace, the precious chalice poured out for many, and our most grievous fault. It seems somewhat more obscured now. And those who lack roofs have already understood this for a long time.

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Why Madonna’s Super Bowl Performance Could Initiate a Much-Needed Conversation

Posted by Phillip Clark on February 5, 2012

Feelings are pointless, don’t ever let anyone see you cry, and make sure to master the art of sports to the best of your ability. This sums up the standard American definition of what constitutes a man. For my whole life, I’ve been aware that nearly all of the facets of my personality ran counter to such a manifesto. These noticeable differences have always made me conspicuously unique, compared to the other men whose company I’ve shared at different junctures of my life thus far. Until a few years ago, this reality was not seen as positive but rather something negative and derogatory that was viewed with scorn, sincere confusion, and outright contempt from some. Currently, my life is worlds away from such a precarious and cloudy atmosphere. But this does not erase the living nightmare that so many lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender teenagers – and even some adults – endure on a daily basis just for being themselves, not being conscious of the possibility that things can and will get better.

A significant degree of the problem is most likely cultural. The question must be asked: why is there only one mold that is exalted in America as the legitimate way of being a man?

When Madonna was announced as the scheduled performer for the halftime show at this year’s Super Bowl the response from most male football fans was one of annoyance and, in some cases, sheer outrage at the selection. What would warrant a reaction like this? In recent years Janet Jackson, Shania Twain, and Britney Spears have all debuted at the year’s most awaited sports arena. None of these other female artists were met with such hostility or indifference when it was made public that they would be the entertainment for the Super Bowl of each respective year.

From personal experience, it is obvious that most men appeared to think that Madonna was too old or not sexually appealing enough to garner a sufficient volume of excitement to make the performance one to remember. To some, this may be a legitimate grievance about this year’s halftime show. But another dynamic is at play. The fact is, even though former artists may indeed fall into this category, it’s harder to find any other artist that screams gay icon more than Madonna – except maybe Lady Gaga… Where Mother Monster probably would have had more relevance because of her youth, comprehensive popularity, and global appeal, Madonna may be viewed by the average, male, football fan as simply being a gay, old, pastime that has no pertinence to his life whatsoever. Why should any straight man be forced to subsist in such an overwhelmingly uncomfortable environment?

If being gay and being a real man weren’t considered mutually exclusive would this even be a problem?

The organizers of this year’s Super Bowl have made it apparent that the theme of homosexuality will subliminally pervade the course of the game. A commercial will be broadcast to specifically combat the bullying of LGBT persons in an athletic context. Heterosexual men may not consider this topic one that would impact their lives directly. But this is precisely part of the dilemma that exists within our culture as Americans. Walls have been erected where they need not exist. The seismic gap between the heterosexual and the homosexual realms of experience can and must be bridged.

From my own vantage point, I have to admit that during high school, I vividly remember zoning out completely whenever the time arrived to participate in my daily gym classes. Unless it was to ogle a guy who I found attractive, I really never paid attention or cared much about the logistical strategies of the games that were being played. I even feel a bit guilty about it in hindsight. Nearly every day, I nonchalantly flaunted the fact that these activities held no importance for me. Daily, I could predictably be found strolling along the field as my classmates actively took part in whatever game was being played, or, if forced to participate, I would do the bare minimum that was required for me to be considered a player. The apathy I had was undoubtedly formed by the fact that I did not grow up in an athletic household. Because of this, I never had the desire to pursue any meaningful directions in the realm of sports. Thus, any potential athletic ability I could have possessed had never been developed, and when forced to participate in sports activities, I simply viewed the endeavor as a chore that had to be carried out laboriously.

Because my personality never really contained the brawn that is required to be successful in sports, I simply saw the whole enterprise of athletics as something that I could never relate to. Viewing the world through different eyes, it has become clear that such an approach is profoundly simplistic. Being raised in a certain environment does not give one cause to belittle or dismiss the experiences that others may find meaningful and endearing in life. If anything, stepping outside of one’s comfort zones and learning to view the world as others do will only serve to enrich one’s own personal psyche and sense of being. All humans profit immensely by expanding our horizons beyond the limits of our own backyards.

Adopting such a perspective means that someday I should really sit down, and take the time to learn, analyze, and take part in the athletic pursuits that most men around the world find genuinely entertaining and gain true fulfillment from. Perhaps all gay men who’ve never been naturally athletic could derive something from understanding the mental calculations and determination that goes into strategically organizing the course of a given game?

It should be a given that as the legislative and social push for gay equality necessitates that those who are prejudiced or bigoted leave their immediate spheres of influence to become acquainted with new perspectives, so should LGBT persons not simply demand to be civilly accommodated, but truly explore and investigate how they can take part in and learn from the world in which they have been born.

By the same token, many heterosexual men, particularly those involved in the athletic arena, could do a lot more to better understand the emotions and activities that give meaning to the lives of gay men. Cultural barriers must be eradicated so that certain activities, settings, or even people aren’t just viewed as “gay”, but rather as unique, offering something special to society that is not encountered routinely. A wonderful way for such an enlightenment to take hold across all of American society would be if athletes who happened to be gay were given the freedom by the media and their fans to be open and unashamed about their fundamental identities. How is it that professional athletes are allowed to physically jostle, tackle, and even grab certain parts of each other’s bodies to express their enthusiasm for the game, but if it was discovered that they were attracted to persons of the same-sex and in a committed relationship with such a partner, this would completely obliterate the sense of irreproachable masculinity that is accorded to them by their fans?

Dialogue always ensues by way of a two-way street. Even though it may be awkward for many, choosing none other than the Queen of Pop to perform at this year’s Super Bowl could be the perfect way to begin the process of having such a meaningful discussion throughout the nation.

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