So, I’ve been a little AWOL lately and I apologize. The main reason for this is that in mid-August I (along with the other lay students at my school) all moved from one city to another, as our school has become part of a larger institution. Which means that in addition to having to get used to a new school, we all had to move out of our apartments and across the river. And, of course, the internet in my apartment didn’t work for the first three and a half weeks. A wee bit problematic when you’re a grad student, having blogs to post, and serve as a translator…
Most of us don’t deal well with change. I’m have a weird relationship with change. I kind of hate it, but I think that most of that has to do with the fact that I don’t often make small decisions. I’m much more of the move across the country and start over type. So perhaps that makes me hate change, since I never seem to do it in small increments. I feel like the protagonist in Dar Williams’ new song, “It’s Alright.”
“I know change is a bad thing, breaks me down into a sorry sad thing, not some iridescent grateful butterfly. I’ll resist with defiance, not the valor of a mystic silence, I will fight dizzy spiral of goodbye.”
And maybe that’s why the Church is so averse to change. I mean, most of us are quite averse to it in our own lives and so when you multiply that times 1 billion, it makes sense that change is not something we’re thrilled about.
For my part, I’m trying to be better about making smaller changes, so I don’t completely shock myself when change does come. Or, at the very least, I’m going to try and be a little less crabby about things being different.